I went into Saturday with a boat load of apprehension already. Not only was I going to see the one jerk that I blame for jading me in so many ways but I had a new haircut that was not topping the charts either.
Turns out I was right on both counts.
For some ungodly reason, my sister’s house is 40% more humid than the rest of Texas. Could be the horse poopies but no one is saying. So by the time we arrived, having gotten out at 2 gates to manually open them, unload from the truck, grab presents, and make our trek through the mud, you could say we were a bit sticky and frizzy. Nevertheless, we were excited to see the 30+ folks who attended and starving for some delicious BBQ.
I said "hi" to my sister and noticed Jed out of the corner of my eye, ya, I almost fainted. I knew he would be there, but seeing him was different visually. I went on my way inside and settled in, kissing my niece a big Happy 17th. Amy, Drew, HIM, mom and I gathered on the porch and huddled. Fellow family went by visiting, all was well and the tension was at a minimum. THENN, Jed walked by. I must have appeared to be invisible. What a relief. Thank Gawd for super powers.
The party was coming to an end and we are getting ready to say adios when we ended up eye to eye. Jed still didn’t bother to speak, so being the better person, I offered a half assed wave and he returned the same. No words exchanged. He grinned and starred. The end. Still not sure if that meant, damn I’m glad she left when she did or what.
We headed off to the truck and left with our dignity. Amazingly, I didn’t go up to him and say anything I had wanted to get off my chest for the past 13 years or jump at the urge to close any doors. Clearly, my unresolved issues were just that, mine. A very hard admission to swallow.
Sunday I woke up feeling 100% better. Strange, but better. Having dreamt about him every night for 13 years, and for the first time, not to…. I felt refreshed and emotionally cleansed. Amen to moving forward!!!
And to top it off, I gave a pretty kick ass gift and the coolest card!
Happy Birthday Niecie!!!!! I love you!!!!!!
3 comments:
so what was the awesome gift cole???
sometimes you don't have to say anything in order to have closure...i hope your dreams of him stop for good. except i hope that doesn't mean that i would have to see craig in order to stop dreaming of him. :-/ UGH on stupid assssss dreams!
luv u!
~the other cole
A bottle of perfume she had been asking for. A fancy schmancy necklace with turqouise/coral/etc stones and a big silver cross. and a talking card. HEEHAA!!
I really went into that day thinking I needed one-on-one time with him to just close that book. Heck, he called for 2 weeks after I walked out on him that day and has been in the family ever since. turns out, one look, and I was ok :D
LUVS ME SOME U!!!!
Ooo dang! you did get her some awesome bday gifts! Can i be your niece too?? ;)
dumb boys.
LUV U!
~the other cole
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