Lucky

I have a new friend whom I have grown to love in a very short amount of time.
Our relationship is mainly virtual, but very real. He is open and honest. Always willing to listen. Never condescending. And someone I have grown to depend on.

He and I have a lot in common in relation to our marriages, so that is normally where our conversations end up.

For me, my marriage is not bad enough to leave but it isn’t good enough to stay at times. In his marriage it is wonderful in most aspects, yet she is selfish.

We are both aware there will always be greener pastures, but are realistic enough to appreciate what we DO have.

He has a psych degree and is awesome to toss thoughts to and hear his perspective. Deep meaningful conversations is one thing I dig. He definitely met a talker.

Just today he said this to me.

You have tricked yourself into thinking you can leave for good, but you can't.
For your well being...you must either accept him and his short comings...and try to be
happy, or leave. And don't look back.
You are very sweet woman, you have a lot to offer a man, and I want you to be happy.
And really those are the only ways you can be. Remember comfortable doesn't equal happy.
You are not being fair to yourself or him.

*This is only a tiny snippet of our IM conversation, but I think you can get the idea of how genuine and honest he is. I truly treasure him.


To my friends: I am very lucky to have so many of you in my life that care about me, unconditionally, and have my best interests at heart. Believe me that it is reciprocated.

FOR REAL....

For the last week I have been doing OT. Given that I am a bitch lately, I can't seem to wrap my mind around the reason 'others' are not working OT along side me.
Shouldn't I get triple OT? WTF?!?

On top of the long days, what happens last night, but HE gets sick.
Helping the sick at 3am was not on my agenda.

Now I am a tired, a bitch, AND sleep deprived.

This month just keeps getting better.....

But WAIT, don't forget the mean phone calls from the ex-wife saying how
she caught my stepson "in the act"...... And we need to come get him.

Calgon take me away.

At what point does adulthood go from drama to fun?

DANGER!!!!

Warning to those within any amount of distance from me:

I am off my meds temporarily. Turns out my doctor doesn’t accept my new insurance.

It has been a week so my moods are in full force now. Don’t say I didn’t warn you.


Will post when I return to normal.

We all have our secrets...

Happy Valentine's....

New developments

As most of you know, I can only update this M-F, 8-5. You also know I work those hours, which makes it hard to sneak in a post. Sorry for the 6 week hiatus.

A few new developments have occurred that I would like to report.
After a knock down-drag out confrontation with the Mr., I have taken back my life. Well, still being with him, please realize I am trying to be a team player and trying to figure out how to spell team with an I.

First off, I HAVE MY CAR BACK for any of you who are sick of not seeing me!!! *Luc, Sis or chauffering me around. * I do not need a hall pass, nor do I need a permission slip I got big girl panties. Chances are I might even ignore his calls when we are ‘out’. GET IT!!!! I KNOW!!! It’s all too much to take in at once. LOL.

I have also joined a Book Club. Yes, I know I will have to read. *evil eyes at Sis*
The first meeting is next Thursday. I think I may wet myself I am so excited.
I began the search 2 weeks ago and have been waiting for the right group. I wanted something to do. You know, away from HIM, that I would enjoy, and I knew he would HATE… BINGO!!!! BAHAHAHAHAHAHA….. I crack myself up sometimes. I hope I made the right group choice. It is new so there are no ‘clicks’ established yet. It is 20’s to 30’s and North/Central. It meets my requirements. HA… I do think my friends have a secret pool against me. I hope they all lose.

OH!, and for any of you who are feeling sorry for HIM that I am a Beotch, don’t, he thinks he is happy. I do believe his mother dropped him a few times as an infant.

Anyway, I must say when things are going my way; damn the world is a brighter place. I know you all like me more. Gosh I am a mess. Thank you all for not killing me and hiding my body.

Now, what will I conquer next!?! I feel like I have cajones the size of a small country.

So, Coffee anyone ?

XOXOXOXO